The Chaos Chronicles with Taylor Cecelia Brook
The Curiosity Chronicles
D 🧔🏻‍♂️, Trees 🌿🌿, and Måneskin 🎸🎸
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D 🧔🏻‍♂️, Trees 🌿🌿, and Måneskin 🎸🎸

The One Everyone Has Been Waiting For.... JK

The song that made me realize I couldn't let D go

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hello and welcome back to the curiosity chronicles i am your host taylor cecilia

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brooke and with me today i am super super excited to have a very special guest my

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very very wonderful sexy hot amazing fiancee d say hi d hey how's it going guys

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I wanted to bring him on here today because I thought it would be really fun for

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you guys to see kind of how just how our relationship flows.

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Plus, he's had a really interesting life and I am always curious to learn more about him.

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So first, I want you to kind of like introduce yourself.

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I know everybody hates it when people say, tell me about yourself.

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But,

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you know,

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for people who don't read my Substack at all and only listen to the podcast,

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they probably have no idea who you are.

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All right.

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Well, my name is Devin, 30 years old.

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I am a father.

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To Iz, you're Iz's dad.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Iz is my kid.

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Yep.

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And, shoot, I mean, I'm a Marine Corps veteran.

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What'd you do in the Marine Corps?

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Oh, I was supply logistics for nine years.

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You did way more than that.

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Yes.

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That's like just the tip of the iceberg of what you did.

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Yeah.

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Nine years, three different units.

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First unit was 2nd Tank Battalion, Camp Lejeune, North Carolina.

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Second unit was VMU-1 in Yuma, Arizona, a little bit in 29 Palms.

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And then third unit was INI, being an inspector instructor at Evansburg PA Truck Company.

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And somehow we never crossed paths because you were in that whole time.

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Because you got out in... 2021.

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Yeah.

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So you just never crossed your path.

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Nope.

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That's super crazy.

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So you're in the Marine Corps.

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You're a dad.

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And now what do you do?

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Now I'm one of the managers over at Shields.

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That's opening up in Tulsa.

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No one knew that I lived in Tulsa.

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No.

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Well, no one still knew.

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They just knew I worked in Tulsa.

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Yeah, well, actually, it's not a big deal.

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I don't give a shit.

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You look at my name, you can see everything on me.

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Okay.

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Like,

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I'm kind of just,

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at this point,

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the minute I put my book out there,

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it's going to have your last name on it.

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Yeah.

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So it's like, the minute I put the book out there, everybody's going to know everything about me.

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So it's like, you know, and Joey didn't care about having his name out there.

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Yeah, I'm not too worried about it.

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But so, yes, you work at Shields.

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We live in Tulsa, unfortunately.

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It's not all bad, but it's definitely not sunshine and rainbows.

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And we would definitely like to be living somewhere else.

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Agreed.

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So, you know.

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It is what it is.

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We're both kind of, well, I'm stuck here.

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He's not necessarily stuck here.

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I'm stuck here.

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I'm stuck here because you're stuck here.

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Aw, you're so sweet.

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That's just the truth of it.

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Yeah, we're stuck here for four years.

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No, 13 more years.

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Holy shit, my kid got older.

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I forgot about that.

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Oh, yes, this is an episode featured...

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With trees, we are having trees on here.

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I don't know how Substack is with the legalities of all of that.

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We are in a legal state, but I know I need to be careful because, you know, people are stupid.

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So if you hear that coughing, any of that, that's what's happening over here.

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We thought it would be fun for you guys to see us, like, honestly, properly in our truest forms.

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Although I think our truest forms is probably when we're tripping on mushrooms.

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Yeah, probably.

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Fun fact, that's when he told me he loved me.

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Yes.

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His eyes literally looked like an anime character.

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They were so huge.

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He was like, I could literally see in his eyes.

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He was like, oh, fuck.

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Did I really just say that?

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Because I wasn't divorced yet.

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We were not going to have a relationship.

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And we definitely had started to develop feelings.

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Yeah, we were telling each other we loved each other, just not using those specific words.

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Yeah, what did we say?

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You mean so much to me.

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You mean a lot to me.

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What was the other one?

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You make me happy.

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Oh, yes.

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You make me happy.

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Oh, you make me so happy.

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Yeah, which is not much different than I love you so much.

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So fucking much.

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Correct.

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We just kept following that line.

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But yeah, so our two, our two on themselves.

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Now I will say that there's probably going to be a lot of digressions and I'm going

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to try to be the best fiance and podcast host possible and not interrupt you too

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many times when you're talking.

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Oh, it's just giving them a view into the real world.

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I just stuck my tongue out.

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They interrupted me.

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I was about to say the same thing.

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literally did what you said i do oh my god it's like you know me just a bit just a

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bit yeah okay so you work at shields you're in the marine corps you have a daughter

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yes i mean technically you have two more now but i have a daughter and a daughter

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and a daughter and a daughter yeah

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And then we have our boys.

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We have the two boys.

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And Zussi is yours and Shepi is mine.

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And now they're all yours.

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I was going to say, they're both kind of mine now.

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Yeah, fucking Shep just like straight up was like, oh, I don't know who you are anymore.

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And just fell in love with Daddy.

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It was ridiculous.

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He is what Daddy's for.

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He really is.

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He doesn't even come close to smiling at me like the way he smiles at you.

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I know.

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And when I come home, he gets so excited.

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I literally was talking to my therapist about that,

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how like watching them really helps put in perspective like things that I can be

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grateful for because they're so fucking thankful that you're just home petting them.

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I know.

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You should be more happy when I come home and pet you.

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You should know that I am.

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There's so many things I can't say right now.

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Got to keep it semi.

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Not.

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Well, no, it's marked as 18 plus.

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Yeah, so if you're under 18, fuck off.

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Yeah, it's probably not a good idea for you to listen to this one.

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But anyway, what were we talking about?

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We were talking about... Okay, so we have the Dodgers.

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Yes.

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We have the boys.

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Yes.

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There you go, the two dogs.

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Yes.

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And... They're near 200 pounds of dog.

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Yeah, for real.

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That like to lay on top of us.

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Yes.

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Yeah.

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And get more ankles.

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Yes.

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I can walk those, too, by myself.

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Well, yeah.

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They're well-behaved boys.

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Yes.

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Shep wasn't always well-behaved on a leash.

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No.

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He's doing a lot better all around.

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Oh, yeah.

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Motherfucker doesn't jump fences anymore.

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I'm better than I was.

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I know, for real.

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You're probably going to start fucking barking.

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Okay, so many think that it was Kara Allwell that introduced me to subject, but it wasn't.

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It was actually you.

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Yeah, I mean, it wasn't like a super detailed introduction.

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It was just you were talking about writing.

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And so it reminded me of the Joe Rogan podcast where the founder of Substack was on

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there and talking about how he was really trying to make a platform for writers.

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Yeah, that was the interview with Chris Best, I believe.

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Yeah.

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Cause I don't know if he's interviewed Hamish or not.

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Um,

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I don't know,

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but that was actually the podcast that made me want to start my podcast like that

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because I really enjoyed the way they talked with each other,

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but he also brought up Chris brought up,

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he's like,

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no one really does this.

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That was in their podcast.

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So I thought that was, that's kind of what sparked this idea for all of this, but, okay.

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Um,

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So, yeah, it was you.

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But why did you think it would be a good platform for me?

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Oh, I mean, it just seems like they actually care about the writers more than just trying to make money.

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Now, I mean, it's a business still, so I'm sure, you know, there is the business aspect of it.

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But, I mean, it really seems like they care about the writers.

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They're wanting to give people a platform to express themselves.

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It seems pretty cool.

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So I brought it up.

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Well, I appreciate it because it has been a huge awakening for me.

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Just all the doors that have started opening because of it.

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I feel like that's just the link itself.

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theme with my life with you.

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All these doors just keep opening up, and it's like, oh, because I'm finally with the right person.

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Yeah, I'm just passing along information.

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You're the one putting in the work.

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Yeah, but you're still passing it along.

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Of course.

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You're still listening to what I'm saying.

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Always.

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Yeah.

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It's not always like that for other people.

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Nah.

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Or with other people.

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Oh, I can't speak for them.

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No.

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I just try to do what I can.

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You do.

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You definitely do.

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But you're divorced.

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I am divorced.

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Yes.

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So we both are.

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Correct.

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And we both said we wouldn't ever get married again.

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Also correct.

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I tried.

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Yes.

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Yes, you did.

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Ooh.

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You should tell them how you proposed to me and why you chose Lynn.

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Okay.

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May is a big deal for us.

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It's a big month for us for some reason.

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Yeah.

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What's that?

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I don't even know where to start.

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I mean, because I had planned it out quite a while ago.

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Really?

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Oh, yeah.

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I asked Isabella and Lucy both ahead of time.

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You asked Lucy?

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And she kept a secret?

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Yeah.

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Oh, yeah.

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She is Emma.

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I'm so proud of her.

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Yeah, that one I was worried about.

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Because I don't like... You know... I think I just said it was a surprise, though.

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I didn't say, like, don't tell your mom.

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I said it was a surprise.

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Yeah, and she's a really... She really...

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Surprises are a big fucking deal to her.

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Yeah, she loves them.

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I know.

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And it was.

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It was a surprise.

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It was a surprise.

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I was so not expecting it.

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Okay.

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But anywho, so, yeah, talked to them, contemplated talking to your father.

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Still kind of kicking myself that we didn't.

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I didn't know about the Kansas cabin.

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I would have freaking invited him out there or something.

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That would have...

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But, so, anywhoos.

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So, we had our date.

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You're going to have to remember.

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The date we went paintballing.

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Yes.

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The date we went paintballing.

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Yeah, we went and, because it was technically my date.

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It was my date to plan.

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Yep.

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So, we went and got tacos.

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Yeah, which were amazing.

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They were amazing.

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And then we went and paintballed, and I got fucking hammered on margaritas.

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And hammered by paintballs.

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By paintballs, yeah.

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Yeah.

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black and blue everywhere for a while made me regret you taking me paintballing

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well i mean you know i knew that would happen i just sometimes it's hard for people

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to grasp the concept of what happens when i make those choices yeah it was a little

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crazy but but we went paintballing we had uh it was hot dogs and stuff right hot

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dogs and hammers but i don't

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I didn't eat anything.

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Did you eat anything?

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I can't remember if I ate anything.

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I don't feel like you ate anything because you got food later, way later that night.

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Yeah.

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So, but you definitely partook in the margaritas.

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Oh, yes.

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Yes.

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I think three.

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Three.

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And they were not like.

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They were not bullcrap margaritas.

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No.

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No.

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They were.

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Fucking strong.

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Why did I not say bullshit, but then I said fuck?

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Can't help you with that one, hon.

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Yeah.

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You say fuck a lot on your podcast.

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Oh, I know.

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What?

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You say fuck a lot, so it's okay if I say it.

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Of fucking course.

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Okay.

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Anyways.

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So, yeah, paintballing, margaritas.

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Then I was worried that you were too drunk to propose to.

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So what did you do?

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I suggested we go get french fries because you love french fries.

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And they do what?

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Sober you up.

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And he knew that.

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Like...

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It's just, like, he knew that about me.

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And how many times have we gotten, like, drunk drunk together?

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Not very many.

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No, just a couple.

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Yeah, and you still remember that.

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You still knew that.

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Yes, because I tried to pay attention to you.

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I appreciate it.

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Of course.

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Okay, so we got French fries.

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Yes.

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Over strategically by where we were going.

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But we had to come home first.

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Because we had to give back Bauer.

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That was the first time Bauer stayed with us.

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Yes, so we had to give back a dollar bill.

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Yeah.

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And then we went to get french fries.

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Right?

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Or was french fries?

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Yeah, it was after because we had the french fries when we got to the park.

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Yes, yeah, we did.

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That's right.

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It was a park on a river.

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Yes, there's a beautiful river walk.

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And it was a perfect little setting.

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Yeah.

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It really was.

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It was so nice that night.

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It was, like, the sky was dark, dark.

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The moon was so bright.

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Yeah.

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And there weren't very many lights on either.

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Nope.

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There were just a few lights, just enough to where you could really see.

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And we walked down there.

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There was a snake.

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There was a snake.

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I forgot about the snake.

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Yeah, there was a snake.

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I kind of chased it off.

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You did?

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Yeah.

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And then somehow I got tangled in.

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What was that?

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Fishing line.

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Yeah, you got tangled in that clear little fishing line.

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I still don't know how it happened because I obviously never saw it.

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Not that that's saying much because I'm, you know, night blind and I was definitely still drunk.

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And so I got down on a knee to, you know, help you get out of the fishing line.

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And then I pulled out a ring.

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Yeah.

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And I was not expecting that.

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And I said what, which made you nervous.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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I completely forgot everything I was going to say.

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Yeah.

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i think i just basically said i love you so fucking much will you marry me probably

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i don't know i was so like my brain wasn't processing anything you could have said

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a thousand things and i probably still wouldn't have processed any of it yeah

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because i was just so like fucking over the moon that that this was actually

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happening

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Yeah, I was going to do a whole thing.

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You make me feel like the luckiest man in the world.

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I know you couldn't do this life without you.

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You make me whole.

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I feel like we've gone through this life before and another life.

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It was a whole little thing in my head.

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And as soon as I got down on one knee and I realized that that was the moment I was

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going to do it,

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my heart was beating so fast.

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It did not help that I said, shut up.

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Yeah, that's what you said.

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Yeah.

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And I was like, oh, that just threw everything off too.

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Yeah.

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Yeah, and I was 100% doing like a clueless shut up, like Valley Grill 101 right there.

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Yeah.

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But I was so drunk that everything was just like.

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Yeah, you get very California girl when you're drunk.

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I know, or when I'm super high.

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Yeah, but only like certain ways.

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Oh, interesting.

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Like, yeah, it's more like, I don't, yeah, different consumptions.

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You have kind of different reactions.

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Oh, do tell.

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I don't know how detailed I can go on here.

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As detailed as you are.

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Well, you said they're weird about that.

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I don't know if they're... Oh.

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Just use... So, like, when you're using the water pipe... Uh-huh.

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It is very different than when you do the dabs versus when we chain smoke joints.

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Yeah.

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Or just hit the pen a bunch.

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Yeah.

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Like, your reactions are very different.

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So, what...

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Pen gets you air-heady.

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And then joints, you wanted to either talk a ton or eat a ton.

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I know.

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I always want to eat a ton.

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We literally had to make a rule that he has to help me enforce.

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You literally did it last night.

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Yeah, I didn't feel good about it.

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No, and it's so... It was one of those moments... I feel like a pet from my fiancé.

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No, it was... I'm telling you not to eat.

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No, that's because you are... You're a good fiancé.

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That's what I needed because I didn't need any food.

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I did need the pickle juice, which was literally what I needed.

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It was so perfect.

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But...

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I didn't actually need any food.

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I wasn't actually hungry.

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But...

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And you remembered and you also remembered even when I say no or say I want it anyway,

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you have to,

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like,

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stand strong because that's one of the things we've been trying to work on with

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each other,

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just,

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like,

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holding each other accountable because that's what real partners do.

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Right.

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We make...

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Yeah, we make a lot of, you know, decisions while we're smoking.

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And then when we're sober, we do not enforce them, even when sometimes we should.

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Yeah.

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We've been doing a lot better with that.

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Oh, for sure.

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It's still challenging with the whole food thing.

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The food thing is the most challenging thing,

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and it has been the most challenging thing probably for most of my adult life.

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Right.

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Like... Just knowing your history and everything, it makes it really...

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It feels like a lot of weight on my shoulders when I tell you, like, don't eat.

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Because I don't want you to, like, ever think that it's anything coming from me.

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It's coming because you told me.

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Yeah.

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Okay.

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So what's really interesting is all of a sudden it was,

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like,

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I obviously rewired this,

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which is incredible.

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But, like, you...

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doing things that make me a better person, make me the person that I want to be, you know?

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Like, you're holding me accountable because I want to be held accountable to who future Taylor is.

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Like, the person she wants to be has to do those things to get to be that person.

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And I don't get there by self-sabotaging myself,

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which is literally just what I'm doing with all of those other things.

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And drinking...

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Like, tonight, I'm going to get pounded and we're done.

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We're done.

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Yeah, I think you want to get high one last time and then done.

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I did quit for a month, though.

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Correct.

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No, I was just using that as an example because that's, like, a very common thing.

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Yeah, I know.

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No, you in no way are addicted to alcohol.

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No, I actually, I was thinking about it.

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I think it has to do with the carbonation.

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Well, that's not good.

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Go get a fuzzy water.

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Yeah, I know.

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I think it's because it's different than the fuzzy water and it's different from soda.

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I don't know.

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I think you like the effects of alcohol, too.

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I mean, if we're being real.

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It's probably because I'm not so afraid of throwing up anymore.

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Yeah, and that allows you to enjoy alcohol more.

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Yeah.

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Yeah, I'm just with both of your parents drinking so much.

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That's the only thing that gets me...

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Yeah,

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well,

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exactly,

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which is why I'm like,

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okay,

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I don't want to continually...

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Plus,

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didn't you get that lemonade for me?

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I did, but you said you weren't going to drink it.

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Not last night.

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Maybe I'll drink it in the future.

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Okay, that's fine, too.

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Then I won't.

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But anyway, what I was saying is, wow, huge digression.

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Yeah.

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What I was saying is you hold me accountable.

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And I have never before had a partner that truly holds me accountable that isn't my female best friends.

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And even then, like, you know, the main one.

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so like she does but um I've never had the ability to be okay being held

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accountable so that's the other aspect like it doesn't feel like a personal attack

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because you're literally doing what I asked you to do

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Yeah, we talked about it ahead of time.

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Exactly.

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And it's like, I know he's not doing it because you are wanting me to feel a certain way.

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You're only doing it because that's literally what I told you to do.

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Yeah.

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So that was really cool just to start realizing a lot of that stuff.

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Like the other night when I don't know what I did.

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I did something.

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And you're like, that wasn't cool.

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I was like, oh, you're right.

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I'll do that again.

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I'm sorry.

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And that was that.

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Yeah.

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And I said, thank you for pointing that out.

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Which, a year ago, that would not have been the case.

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No.

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For me either, though.

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Like, I think we're both getting better at communicating.

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Ugh.

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And by doing that, it prevents a lot of other drama and bullshit.

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Like the fucking butter incident?

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What was the butter incident?

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You remember we had a whole fucking like multi-day fight over... Not a fight.

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It was just like... It was a fight over how much better I put on the Pop-Tart.

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It was not a fight because I was not aware.

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Yeah, that's me.

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I was not aware I did anything wrong.

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So... I didn't know you called it a fight in your head even.

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Yeah.

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I mean, I was coming at you with a fist in my head, so... Right, I was just unaware of what I did wrong.

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Yeah, and you didn't understand why I was so pissy.

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Yeah.

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I was just having a war.

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Until this day, until right now, I didn't know it was multi-day.

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Yeah, that sounds about right.

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I think... I said something recently that, like, I thought I couldn't pretend...

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And it's not that I couldn't pretend.

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It's just that I spent most of my life living a pretend life in my head.

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Because I was so wrapped up in everything internally.

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And... I could literally make myself believe anything.

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That's crazy.

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Yeah.

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I think almost literally.

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Probably.

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Probably.

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So, like, having...

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So you would just substitute reality with whatever you made up in your head?

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Yeah.

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Oh.

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It wasn't always consciously.

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Oh.

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Yeah, that's the worst part.

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No, I'm very aware of it now.

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Because, like...

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My brain every now and then still wants to go there.

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But now I know.

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So I'm like, no, we're not going to do that.

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Yeah, you like stop yourself from like creating a false reality sort of thing.

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Yeah, which just causes me to go insanely internal.

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Because it's not a healthy false reality.

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Yeah.

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It's a very dysfunctional false reality.

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That's so interesting.

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Yeah.

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There's so many things where...

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I thought back on them and I was like,

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oh,

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they definitely were not doing what I thought they were doing.

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Oh, it's the thing where you jump to conclusions, but you jump to the wrong conclusions.

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Or I feel personally... I thought they were personally attacking me.

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That's a huge one.

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Yeah, all of that kind of stuff.

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That's something we've run into a lot.

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Oh, yeah.

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Like,

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it's...

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Like,

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this is recent that I'm finally,

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like,

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really...

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Not the false reality stuff,

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but,

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like...

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The jump into the...

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Like,

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they're attacking me versus they're just...

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Exactly.

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Because that's a multi-faceted trigger right there.

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Like, there's, like, multiple reasons why I do that.

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Right.

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It's so...

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But, yeah, it's really interesting that I am capable of doing that.

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I now understand what my grandpa meant when he said that I have a very vibrant imagination.

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Oh, it wasn't the compliment like he thought it was.

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I think he meant it both ways because he did find the minds of sociopaths and psychopaths

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fascinating and he worked with schizophrenia patients and bipolar patients so where

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do you fit in there no OCD ah yeah with an overactive imagination because I'm a

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girl and that's apparently what girls do yeah I mean you're not quite the typical

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woman though ooh how so

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That sounds so interesting.

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I mean, I think just generally, like, you're a lot more outgoing and adventurous and open.

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You don't seem to have a very closed-off mindset, except for when you're in certain moods.

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You get into these stubborn little moods where...

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Nothing no one says, nothing anyone says will change your mind.

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But that's okay, because I think we all have that.

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Oh, for sure.

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I know I do that when I shut everything off.

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Oh, yeah, you definitely have a lot of those.

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Yeah.

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But that's okay.

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We've also learned that, like,

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I think we've learned pretty well that there's a lot of topics,

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not a lot of topics,

(00:29:43):

but there's a few key things that we don't quite see eye to eye on,

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but that's okay.

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We don't have to, it's nothing like.

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Well,

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yeah,

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because I think it's like anything else,

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you know,

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like a little bit of difference is a good thing.

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Yeah, for sure.

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You know, just a jelly and jelly sandwich.

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At least they should.

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Peanut butter and jelly is where it's at.

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Lou will eat a jelly sandwich.

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I'm pretty sure I also could give her a mayonnaise sandwich.

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She is 100% my kid.

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She didn't like the sandwich I packed the other day at her lunch,

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but she licked all the mayonnaise off the bread.

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It is a ketchup sandwich, so.

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I love that.

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Yeah.

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I think I knew that, because that's why she gets the hot dog bun, so she can do it.

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They both did the corn dog thing.

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Yeah.

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That's so crazy.

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So weird.

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What's the purpose?

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I don't know.

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They're so funny.

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And they're so funny when they're like,

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conspiring together i know i love watching them like work together i know i can't

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wait to watch them get older together it's gonna be so much fun yeah when and for

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uh and for a time yes we are there is gonna be so much attitude in this house yeah

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there already is i know i know it's already a lot

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Like, every single thing Lou does right now comes with a sigh.

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I know.

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I'm like, what the fuck?

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And she death looks me so good sometimes.

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Oh, yeah.

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She definitely got that one from me, too.

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I know.

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She gives me just the meanest, serious little looks.

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And I'm like,

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it's almost hilarious because it's like,

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it's so mean,

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but it's attached to such a little person.

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I'm like, oh, no, you're going to beat me up.

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I have.

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There's a few pictures of her when she was,

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like,

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really little and then,

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like,

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around 18 months and two and a half of her making that face.

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Yeah.

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She's been able to make that mean mug from day one.

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I wonder who she gets that from.

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Me.

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And do you know who I get it from?

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Your mom?

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Yeah.

(00:32:16):

Oh.

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Well, luckily I don't think they're listening, so... No.

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I mean, but she already knows I get my RBF from her.

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Yeah, she has it rough.

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Oh, she knows.

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She's very aware.

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I think she gave me a warning one time about it.

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Really?

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Yeah, I think she said something like, I know I look grumpy, but I'm not always grumpy or something.

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I look angry, but I'm not always angry.

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Yeah.

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Yeah, yeah.

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Her's...

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I don't know if hers is worse than mine.

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Oh, yeah.

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Oh, okay.

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Well, that's good to know.

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I think that makes me feel a little bit better.

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Oh, good.

(00:32:59):

So we are 33 minutes in.

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Yes, we are.

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How long are your podcasts normally?

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Your videos are pretty short.

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No.

(00:33:09):

So when I have people on, they've all been like...

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around the first one was 40 minutes because we got cut off by zoom oh no yeah it

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was super shitty i'm gonna have megan back on because i have some workarounds now

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um and then yeah so like 40 minutes to an hour okay so it's up to you though oh

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i'll go as long as you want i'm feeling great right now and i'm just rambling

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that's what she said

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Really?

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I mean, you do make me ramble sometimes.

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Okay.

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Sometimes you do.

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Yeah, you speak other languages sometimes.

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Wait, was that English?

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I would just keep going.

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Yeah.

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Wait, do I really?

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Do you think all the things that you yell out are words?

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Yeah.

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Really?

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I mean, unless I'm just yelling.

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Because sometimes I'm just yelling.

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Okay, yeah.

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I'm probably talking about those sounds.

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Okay.

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You make different sounds.

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Like, it's not English.

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Yeah, it's been compared to Chewbacca before.

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Ew.

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I know.

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It's not like Chewbacca at all.

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No?

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No.

(00:34:37):

What?

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That's good.

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What kind of Chewbacca?

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At least not with me.

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That's good.

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That's very good.

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Sometimes I feel like I sound like a cow.

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No.

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That's good.

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Yeah.

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I mean, an injured cat maybe, but not... Somehow that's so much better.

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Oh, I know.

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It's just a joke.

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Interesting.

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I mean,

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I knew,

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I will say that,

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like,

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you evoke things from me that have never been evoked in my entire life.

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Ever.

(00:35:17):

So.

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Yeah, that's right.

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I love you so much.

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I love you.

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Okay.

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So, there's two ways we could go with this next.

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Okay.

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We could go more on the relationship-y side, or we could go more on, like,

(00:35:42):

the conspiracy theories you believe side.

(00:35:44):

Oh, God.

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Or, like, the future we want to build.

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Or I can just ask you 20 questions.

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Just ask me questions.

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I think that'll probably get... Like, what is the purpose?

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Like, what's your goal with this podcast?

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To get to know people more, to learn more things, to have a space for people to...

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I meant this one specifically.

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Oh.

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Sorry, I don't think we actually went over that.

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Because I said it doesn't really, like, I just chat.

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Like, there's never any, like, real agenda.

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I kind of just let things.

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Right, I understand that.

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Like, that's, like, how it goes during the podcast.

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Like, this has been literally us chilling.

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Yeah, for sure.

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In bed.

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Yeah, we're literally in bed.

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We are sitting up.

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Yes.

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I'm sitting up more now.

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You are.

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But, like, was the goal to get them to know me?

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Was it to talk about our relationship?

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Yes and no.

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It was more, like, I'm open to all of that.

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I just didn't know how comfortable and how much.

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And, like, I don't want to, like,

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four people out of their mind by us, like, being mushy-gushy over each other.

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Well, here, just ask me 20 questions, and I'll do my best to answer them.

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Okay.

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And then, have you answered a bunch of questions about yourself on here?

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I have not.

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Okay, so ask away, and I will ask away.

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Oh, I'm so excited about this.

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Okay.

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Given that you're colorblind, how does color impact the way you see life?

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So that's a hard one because I've only known how I see things.

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Yeah.

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So to me,

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I see all the colors that are there because I don't know,

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like,

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I don't think I could see differently,

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you know,

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like,

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like what green is to me,

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it's probably not green to you,

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but that's all I've ever known.

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Yeah.

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That is green.

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Does it, is it still as moving?

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So like if someone's looking at something that's very like colorful or the colors like,

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like in a painting,

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is it the same for you?

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I think it is to some extent.

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Because, again, bright colors, I believe, are still bright colors to me.

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It's just my max brightness, maybe it's lower than yours.

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Probably, yeah.

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But to me, when I see something that's crazy colorful or something, it's still...

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colorful to me because that's all i've ever done yeah okay maybe i don't see all

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the shades or all you know quite the same level of detail yeah like the difference

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between sunshine yellow and butter yellow right a lot of those especially if

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they're close to each other they all kind of mesh together um

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But I can still see, you know, the yellow.

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Or like when I see a sunset, it still looks very bright and vibrant and colorful.

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Okay, that's what I was wondering.

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It's probably just...

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different yeah like i've never quite seen the sunset that has evoked crazy emotions

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so maybe there's something there but you know and they have those they have those

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glasses right right and i think the glasses you have to get like the lenses that

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are for your specific version of color blindness oh i'm sure and there's a few

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others

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I know I'm red-green,

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and I think it was like blue-yellow or purple-yellow,

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but I would have to do their little quiz.

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Because what do you see purple as?

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I believe it's,

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again,

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it's purple to me,

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but,

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I mean,

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you've seen it when I get,

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like,

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pink and purple confused.

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That's true, yeah.

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Like.

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Yes.

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So, to me, I guess.

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Reds are really hard for you.

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Yeah, reds and, like, red green is, I think, the main, the main.

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Yeah, which is so interesting because you wear a lot of green shirts, but they look fantastic on you.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Is that why you wear a lot of green shirts?

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I think it's just habit from the military.

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Oh, yeah.

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Okay.

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That makes sense.

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It's kind of the same color as my undershirts were, so I just feel comfortable wearing them.

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Yeah, that makes sense.

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That makes sense.

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Those shirts are so soft.

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Yeah, I am a creature of habit.

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I mean, I'm the same way.

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I wear the same thing.

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Yeah.

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If I'm not leaving the house, if I can get away with wearing a dress, I will.

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Mm-hmm.

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You know?

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That is true.

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Like, that was my preferred clothing option.

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Yeah, I'd never wear dress.

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Mm-hmm.

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I just hate pants so much.

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Unless they're workout pants.

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And even then, like the workout leggings, I'm super picky on.

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Like you are with your shorts.

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Like your Under Armour shorts.

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Oh, yeah.

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I'm super picky about pants.

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Because like the waistbands.

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Oh, I know.

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That's why half of them don't have waistbands.

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Those are my pajama pants, which is almost worse.

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Except for I really wish I could get like 20 more pairs of those.

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orangey pinkish victoria's secret ones that i have oh yeah if i could get like 10

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pairs of those and that's all i had it would be perfect literally perfect no i like

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your little button up with the shorts oh yeah those are good too i've got a lot of

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those now i know they're magical i was telling katie about that because god damn it

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okay she's probably fine with it

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And this is what happens when we just start talking about thinking.

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Yeah, exactly.

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Okay, so that's the colorblindness.

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Question number two.

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It's your turn to ask me a question.

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Ooh, that's true.

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Okay, so what has been your favorite part about being on Substack?

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Oh, just the fucking people I've met.

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Like, 100%.

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I have so many friends now.

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I literally... There's this one woman who literally feels...

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so motherly to me.

(00:43:08):

Yeah.

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In such a good and healthy and positive way.

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And I'm so excited to interview her next week.

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Oh, that's awesome.

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Yeah.

(00:43:17):

But I just met some really, like, really fucking cool people.

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And, like, Megan, that's how I met Megan.

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And I swear we are related somehow.

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Like, somehow.

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It's crazy.

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Because we are so similar.

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Yeah.

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She literally called me her favorite.

(00:43:38):

Called me her favorite.

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I'm her favorite domestic hoe.

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Because she had this whole thing about cauliflower and how she hates cutting it

(00:43:50):

because all the things go everywhere.

(00:43:52):

And I was like, I should have said professional domestic hoe.

(00:43:57):

But I said domestic hoe popping in.

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Just cut off the stem and then you break it.

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then it doesn't make a mess.

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And she was like, how, how have I never thought about that?

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I'm totally going to try that.

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But yeah, it's just really cool.

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The people, the people are really, it's amazing.

(00:44:18):

That's awesome.

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I am so elevated right now.

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Same.

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Okay.

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It's my turn, right?

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Yes.

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I don't think we're going to get to 20.

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No, probably not.

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That's okay.

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We can talk as long as we want.

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I can break it up into two episodes if we want to.

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Okay.

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Yeah.

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It's probably going to be until I get hungry.

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I'm cool with whatever.

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Cuckoo.

(00:44:47):

All right, question number two.

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Okay, question number two.

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What has been your least favorite date we've been on?

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Oh, I think I know the answer to this one.

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That's a tough one.

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That's a really tough one, actually.

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What did you think it was?

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The fucking night where I failed to plan basically anything and the whole date fell apart.

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I almost don't count.

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We just ended up at Nola's.

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Yeah.

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Which, by the way, if you're ever in Tulsa, you have to go to Nola's.

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It's 100% one of the best restaurants I've ever eaten at.

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And I've eaten at a lot of restaurants around the United States, Canada, and London.

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Yeah, I mean, Nola's one of the top restaurants for sure.

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Yeah, you've eaten at a lot of places too.

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Yeah, I mean, I've eaten all along the East Coast and a little bit West Coast.

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Like all the Southern West Coast.

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Yeah.

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Like, you got the real good Mexican food.

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Oh, yeah.

(00:45:58):

You had really good Mexican.

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Oh, I bet.

(00:46:00):

I bet the tortillas were on fire.

(00:46:02):

Oh, yeah.

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And then the meat.

(00:46:05):

Oh, my God.

(00:46:06):

Oh, yeah.

(00:46:07):

And then the homemade sauces.

(00:46:09):

Like, they didn't make it anymore.

(00:46:11):

Yeah.

(00:46:12):

It was... I miss... There was this burrito place.

(00:46:18):

Literally, my mom contemplated...

(00:46:21):

sending my sister with a, like a dry ice cooler or something.

(00:46:24):

So she could bring back these burritos.

(00:46:26):

They're that good.

(00:46:27):

Oh yeah.

(00:46:28):

Yeah.

(00:46:29):

They're, they're just, oh my God.

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question I didn't I don't think you know I asked you a question about what is your

(00:46:34):

least favorite date and you said oh it didn't count you didn't really count yeah I

(00:46:38):

don't really count that necessarily as like our dates because our dates are a lot

(00:46:42):

more planned out and you know well it was supposed to be because we did end up

(00:46:46):

going to the shooting range yes just a different day yes um so I would say least

(00:46:55):

favorite

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That's a hard one.

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I really enjoyed our date.

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I know.

(00:47:11):

Me too.

(00:47:16):

The... Oh, no.

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This one's easy.

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It was the... OKC... Oh, yes!

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It was the OKC...

(00:47:28):

The concert.

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The concert.

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The fucking concert.

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Oh my god.

(00:47:32):

That was awful.

(00:47:33):

The whole thing.

(00:47:34):

It was like, what, like a hundred degrees that day?

(00:47:37):

It was so hot.

(00:47:40):

And humid.

(00:47:40):

And humid.

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I chose to wear a skirt.

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We were sitting on a lawn.

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We didn't have chairs.

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We did not prepare nearly enough.

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No.

(00:47:52):

The music was not great.

(00:47:54):

No, it was because I bought the wrong tickets to the wrong concert, which is so frustrating.

(00:48:00):

That's totally a move you do, though.

(00:48:02):

Literally.

(00:48:03):

That's how I got locked out of the house the other day.

(00:48:07):

Like you said, spacey.

(00:48:09):

It happens when I'm sober, too.

(00:48:13):

It's very frustrating.

(00:48:15):

yeah so that i mean the ice cream almost salvaged it almost but it's still like we

(00:48:22):

let the concert like yeah if that if that it was like we didn't even stay for young

(00:48:30):

and the giant like because i didn't want to i was like i'm so hot this is not worth

(00:48:35):

it and like i got to hear talk perform the one song that i wanted to hear

(00:48:42):

And he's not best life.

(00:48:45):

I'm sorry if he somehow ever hears this.

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He was probably going to get better because he's new.

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And it was literally 100 fucking degrees outside.

(00:48:55):

It was so hot.

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They were playing in the amphitheater.

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Yeah, that was definitely the worst day.

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Yeah.

(00:49:05):

Yeah.

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Okay, your turn.

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Okay.

(00:49:08):

Hmm.

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Which direction do we want to go?

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What was your most favorite date?

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You stole my next question.

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My most favorite date.

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Probably the one where we got engaged, to be honest.

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Okay, that's a good one.

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Yeah, that's fair.

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Yeah.

(00:49:30):

That was a good date, though.

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It really was.

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I had a lot of fun.

(00:49:33):

I think the most funnest, though.

(00:49:36):

The most funnest?

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Yeah, the most funnest.

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God.

(00:49:40):

God.

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We've had some really, really fun dates.

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I know.

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Like, we've gone to the fucking comedy club and saw A.J.

(00:49:57):

Wilkerson.

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I know, that one was pretty sick.

(00:50:01):

We... The go-karting?

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The go-karting.

(00:50:05):

Oh, that might be... That might be, like...

(00:50:09):

The axe throwing was up there for me, too.

(00:50:12):

I know.

(00:50:12):

You definitely enjoyed that more than I did.

(00:50:18):

But I enjoyed how much you were enjoying it.

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And it was still a lot of fun.

(00:50:24):

And it was like... I just leaned into being shitty.

(00:50:29):

Which works for me.

(00:50:31):

I kind of like that gig sometimes.

(00:50:32):

I think...

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You did not lean into it because you got super grumpy because you weren't very good.

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Did I?

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Yeah.

(00:50:40):

That's on track, yeah.

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Yeah, you're super competitive.

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It's so frustrating because I suck at a lot of stuff.

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Only, like, physical things.

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Yeah, which is frustrating when your partner is good at physical things.

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Like...

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Yeah.

(00:51:00):

It's so frustrating.

(00:51:01):

Kind of just naturally good at it.

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I know.

(00:51:04):

That's how I feel about the other stuff.

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I'm naturally good at that.

(00:51:07):

The physical stuff, I am not, which is interesting because my dad is, but, oh, my mom's not.

(00:51:16):

Yeah.

(00:51:18):

I feel like you take after her quite a bit.

(00:51:20):

Yeah.

(00:51:22):

I did get my dad's hair, though, which is cool.

(00:51:25):

That's where I get the curly hair from.

(00:51:26):

Oh, that's cool.

(00:51:27):

Yeah.

(00:51:28):

My grandma's hair was so curly.

(00:51:30):

Okay, so I answered your question, right?

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You did not.

(00:51:37):

You said the go-karting might be it, though.

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Well, no, I said, oh, the most funnest, yeah.

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The most funnest.

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Yeah, probably the go-karting.

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Okay.

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i really want to go somewhere where we can go faster or have less people maybe yeah

(00:52:05):

we will definitely look into once the weather cools down a bit oh for sure yeah

(00:52:11):

would not be i literally like got a sunburn i think

(00:52:16):

When we were out there when it was hot that one time with all of your coworkers.

(00:52:20):

And it wasn't even that hot.

(00:52:21):

I know, exactly.

(00:52:22):

But they're just, like, sun suckers.

(00:52:27):

They really should put solar panels on those things.

(00:52:30):

Yeah.

(00:52:32):

I'm really surprised they haven't figured out how to make,

(00:52:34):

like,

(00:52:34):

paint that has,

(00:52:36):

like...

(00:52:37):

Solar panels in it?

(00:52:39):

Yeah, like, flecks.

(00:52:42):

I don't really figure out how to put fucking glitter in paint.

(00:52:45):

They put it in house paint now.

(00:52:47):

Glitter doesn't have any technology in it.

(00:52:49):

I know, but I think it's going to get there.

(00:52:55):

Yeah.

(00:52:56):

Roll on solar panels.

(00:52:58):

Maybe one day it will be a thing.

(00:53:00):

That would be so fucking cool.

(00:53:02):

We're officially at stone.

(00:53:06):

Yeah, we are.

(00:53:08):

I feel a little bit like Rick and Morty.

(00:53:10):

God, that would be a fun podcast.

(00:53:13):

Rick and Morty podcast.

(00:53:14):

Yeah.

(00:53:15):

Or even just getting to talk to the guys who do the voices of them.

(00:53:19):

I'm pretty sure it was, like, a pedophile.

(00:53:24):

No!

(00:53:25):

Yeah, I think that was the whole thing.

(00:53:28):

Lame!

(00:53:28):

Why are all the cool people pedos?

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I don't know.

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Because, like, that's what What's-His-Face was from... What's-His-Face.

(00:53:37):

Again, all the cool people are pedos, so you gotta be a little more specific.

(00:53:41):

Yeah.

(00:53:43):

I mean, that was Bill Cosby.

(00:53:44):

You forgot Bill Cosby?

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No, I didn't forget about him.

(00:53:49):

How can you forget about him?

(00:53:50):

He tried to defend himself.

(00:53:53):

Very poorly.

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I just don't know his name.

(00:53:57):

The guy from the ranch in that 70s show.

(00:54:00):

Oh, I know who you're talking about.

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Yeah.

(00:54:04):

I don't know his name.

(00:54:07):

Okay, we should move on.

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All right, is it your turn to ask a question?

(00:54:11):

I think so.

(00:54:11):

I think it's my turn to ask a question.

(00:54:13):

All right, I say we ask one more question and we call it because we're... One more each?

(00:54:19):

Yeah, one more each.

(00:54:19):

Okay, I like that idea.

(00:54:21):

I'm getting very hungry, so that's perfect.

(00:54:31):

Tell me everything that you can remember that made you fall in love with me.

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Oh, goodness.

(00:54:38):

All right.

(00:54:39):

How long do you have?

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All right.

(00:54:44):

So I'm going to get mushy.

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I pretty much have to get mushy to answer this question.

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I think that's fine.

(00:54:57):

As long as you're fine with it.

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I'm fine with it.

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Good.

(00:54:59):

You're cooking.

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You're cooking.

(00:55:07):

all because the cinnamon rolls yeah the cinnamon rolls did it the cinnamon rolls I

(00:55:13):

brought him cinnamon rolls on Christmas day yeah I drove all the way to this house

(00:55:18):

to bring him cinnamon rolls yeah all the effort you put in like driving cinnamon

(00:55:25):

rolls out to make Christmas day like the way you make me feel when I'm with you

(00:55:36):

The sex.

(00:55:37):

Oh, my God.

(00:55:39):

Like, still mind-blowing.

(00:55:41):

Still mind-blowing.

(00:55:43):

Holy fucking shit.

(00:55:47):

I mean, it's just everything.

(00:55:48):

Like, you remembering little things for me.

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You going out of your way to just...

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like,

(00:56:03):

little things,

(00:56:04):

like,

(00:56:05):

you bring me lunch when I forget,

(00:56:07):

like,

(00:56:09):

you give me space when I need it,

(00:56:14):

you make me happy when I'm sad,

(00:56:16):

like,

(00:56:17):

there's really never a time that I don't want to talk to you or tell you,

(00:56:24):

like,

(00:56:25):

about everything or just exist with you,

(00:56:30):

like,

(00:56:33):

As long as I'm around you, I'm cool.

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It doesn't really matter what we're doing.

(00:56:40):

Yeah.

(00:56:42):

I love you so fucking much.

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I love you so fucking much.

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You're right.

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I feel very lucky to be yours.

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I feel very lucky to be yours.

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Okay.

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Last question.

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It's yours.

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Yeah.

(00:56:58):

I feel like it has to be a really good question now.

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What's your favorite color?

(00:57:07):

I'm just kidding.

(00:57:08):

I was like, that's obvious to literally everyone.

(00:57:10):

Yeah, that's true.

(00:57:13):

Okay.

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It's pink, by the way.

(00:57:16):

Yeah, and like if you don't know, it's pink.

(00:57:18):

I'm literally wearing pink heart glasses right now.

(00:57:21):

Yes.

(00:57:22):

And I have hot pink nails and a pink watch and pink toes and a pink water bottle

(00:57:27):

and a pink crochet hook and a pink charging cord.

(00:57:31):

Yes, there's lots of pink.

(00:57:34):

You should feel bad for me because there's two little girls that live here as well.

(00:57:39):

But one of them loves turquoise, which is fucking fantastic.

(00:57:44):

Correct.

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And pink.

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And pink.

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Because there's tons of pink everywhere.

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There is tons of pink.

(00:57:48):

She also really likes purple.

(00:57:50):

I'm super outnumbered, guys.

(00:57:52):

Yeah.

(00:57:53):

Lou's favorite color changes on the rig.

(00:57:58):

We thought the color question wasn't going to be good.

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No, ask me a real question.

(00:58:04):

Okay.

(00:58:07):

When did you realize you loved me?

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When did I realize I loved you?

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Correct.

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Oh, no.

(00:58:17):

Let's see.

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Good question.

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Ooh.

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I think...

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I know the moment, I just don't know when it was.

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When was the moment?

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So I was driving, and I was listening to The Loneliest by Måneskin.

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Okay.

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And I just started crying because I was like,

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This can't be him.

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I can't.

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No, this can't happen.

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I can't.

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I don't want that to be him.

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I didn't want to have to let you go.

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But eventually I was going to have to let you go.

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Yeah, because you were married.

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I was married and you did not know.

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You did not know until I moved in with you because I'm kind of a fucked up person sometimes.

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Yeah.

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But...

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I love you.

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And I love where we're at.

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Me too.

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Good.

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But, yeah, that was that.

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And then Christmas came.

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And I don't know what it was,

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but you being alone,

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not going anywhere,

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not having any meal,

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like,

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that really bothered me.

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I noticed that when you showed up.

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When I didn't tell you.

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And I also didn't tell you that I'd been making a blanket for you for, like, three months, I think.

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Yeah.

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I planned for that.

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Like, sometimes my brain works.

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Yeah, it's just crazy that you were making a blanket for three months for your booty call.

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Yeah, that was when I realized I was like, oh.

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This is so much more.

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And I think the feelings all started to kick in after, like, when we went to go pick up your motorcycle.

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That pretty much was my moment.

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Yeah?

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Yeah, three hours with you, just talking and listening to music.

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And just, it was a beautiful day.

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And then I got my motorcycle and rode it like two and a half hours home.

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And then you still took the time to,

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even though you needed to go get Iz,

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you still took the time to give me my payment,

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which required putting things in bags.

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Yeah.

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And you still took the time to do that.

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Yeah, of course.

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And I think we might have shared part of a joint.

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Oh, for sure.

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We always did.

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We did.

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We really... I don't think people realize how much of a pothead I am.

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Oh my goodness.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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It is... It is intense.

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Yeah, not as intense as our sex, though.

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No, not nearly there.

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Okay, it's time for me to go eat, and I'm so excited because we're having sandwiches.

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I'm weird, and I love sandwiches, and that is great, because you love sandwiches, which is also great.

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I do.

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Grandma's texting me.

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Okay, that has been another episode of the Chaos, or the Curiosity Chronicles.

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Jesus, there's too many Chronicles.

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I'm going to have to get that shit together.

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Thank you, babe, for joining us.

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It was so much fun.

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I always love talking with you.

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Of course, baby.

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Thank you for having me.

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You're welcome.

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And we, and I, will talk to you next time.

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The Chaos Chronicles with Taylor Cecelia Brook
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