It's gut wrenching to read all the details of your experience with Lily and it must have taken lot of courage for you to relive these moments to write everything but it's a story worth sharing. Waiting for the next part.
It took me a while to be able to sit down and read this. Sometimes things are still too raw for me. Thank you for sharing your story. It was beautifully written. Sending all the good thoughts to you.
I just love you. REAding this, I felt like I was right there with you the whole time. and at the same time, I WISH i was there with you, to hold space, to love on you, to remind you to ASK FOR AND ACCEPT HELP!
Girlfriend, me and narcotics do NOT have a healthy relationship either. It is extreme allergy, almost kill me reaction type stuff. The last time I took any narcotic, I ended up in the ER with a nurse shaking me and telling me to "STOP IT!" never again. That turned me off of all pharmaceutical prescription meds. been 20 years now. nothing more than an Advil.
Oh what I would have gave to have you there for support.
YES this is me. After my wisdom teeth surgery (post Lily) I was in so much pain… more than labor or post partum, and so I tried to take a tramadol… I ended up in the ER with violent shaking, high heart rate, and extreme shortness of breath…. that was the last time I ever tried to take anything stronger than 800mg advil!!
I've never met anyone who had the shaking like I do with narcotics! it started with a little twitching of my toes and gradually developed into full on spasms and shaking of my legs and eventually whole body. I had it first when I had my wisdom teeth out, and then again when I had knee surgery. The knee surgery was the worst because I was supposed to keep my knee immobilized!
It is interesting how much you struggle to ask for help and tell people around you what's going on with you. I struggled with that exact thing as well for most of my life. I crashed off my bike once during a race and lost loads of skin off my back. It hurt like a mf. I got patched up but didn't tell my parents when I got home. My mum did notice it considering the pained expression on my face but it is interesting that belief system around being on our own despite our loved ones around us.
It's gut wrenching to read all the details of your experience with Lily and it must have taken lot of courage for you to relive these moments to write everything but it's a story worth sharing. Waiting for the next part.
Thank you do much! That means so much coming from you!
I can feel the pain of missing your child post-labour. Thinking how you handled it. Taylor, my hugs and support to you.
Thank you so so much
This sounds so painful. But it's incredibly brave of you to be sharing this story.
Thank you 💓💓
It took me a while to be able to sit down and read this. Sometimes things are still too raw for me. Thank you for sharing your story. It was beautifully written. Sending all the good thoughts to you.
Thank you for being brave enough to read. I’m so thankful you did. Things can still be really raw for me as well 😩
I keep telling myself it’s ok that it will never really go away. We just gotta do whatever we can every day..right?
It won’t but it changes and most days it is easier… kind of lol but ya, we gotta do what we gotta do.
Thank you for sharing your Lily and story with us 🩷
Thank you for reading!
Dear Taylor,
Holy harrowing journey.
My heart was in my throat reading this. I could barely breathe at points.
It’s too familiar of a story.
I’m fully captivated…
I could see many things, but I just wanna read and listen.
I can’t do meds either but wow, just wow
I love you and Lilly and your Mom and Joey
And the doula-all there for you.
💜💚🌹
Thank you ❤️❤️
I just love you. REAding this, I felt like I was right there with you the whole time. and at the same time, I WISH i was there with you, to hold space, to love on you, to remind you to ASK FOR AND ACCEPT HELP!
Girlfriend, me and narcotics do NOT have a healthy relationship either. It is extreme allergy, almost kill me reaction type stuff. The last time I took any narcotic, I ended up in the ER with a nurse shaking me and telling me to "STOP IT!" never again. That turned me off of all pharmaceutical prescription meds. been 20 years now. nothing more than an Advil.
Oh what I would have gave to have you there for support.
YES this is me. After my wisdom teeth surgery (post Lily) I was in so much pain… more than labor or post partum, and so I tried to take a tramadol… I ended up in the ER with violent shaking, high heart rate, and extreme shortness of breath…. that was the last time I ever tried to take anything stronger than 800mg advil!!
I've never met anyone who had the shaking like I do with narcotics! it started with a little twitching of my toes and gradually developed into full on spasms and shaking of my legs and eventually whole body. I had it first when I had my wisdom teeth out, and then again when I had knee surgery. The knee surgery was the worst because I was supposed to keep my knee immobilized!
Lovely writing, inspiring story. You are a pillar of strength and a deep soul 🌞 Beautiful voice, thank you for sharing your experience.
3:33pm 👼🏻
It is interesting how much you struggle to ask for help and tell people around you what's going on with you. I struggled with that exact thing as well for most of my life. I crashed off my bike once during a race and lost loads of skin off my back. It hurt like a mf. I got patched up but didn't tell my parents when I got home. My mum did notice it considering the pained expression on my face but it is interesting that belief system around being on our own despite our loved ones around us.