Unfucking the brain of Taylor Cecelia Brook

It's a really long fucking process

Yesterday I was told to stop reading and start breathing.

Why? Because I already spend way too much fucking time in my head and I have no idea what is going on in my body sometimes because it's so overwhelmed and disconnected from my life. Add to that my brain runs 15 miles a minute. So my thoughts are literally always racing.

Appopppaaarrreenntly, all the reading I'm doing to unfuck myself is fueling the never-ending cycle of thoughts. Now here's the thing. Normally these things wouldn't cause issues. But right now I am not smoking or consuming anything. I am 100% sober. And it's going to take some time for my brain to adjust to no longer having these chemicals in my body. And whoooo buddy it is not a fan of this. I'm shaky and sometimes nauseous and sometimes starving. I'm crying SO MUCH. Like low key the sads are just annoying. I'm not great at feeling sad. I don't like it,

though I don't think many do lol but still. When I get stuck here usually it's because I'm thinking too much and trying to analyze my feelings (which takes hours) instead of just letting myself spend 30 minutes crying in breathing.

But!!!!!! Im already seeing positive changes already. So I know this is going to be the right move for me.

So if you're trying to get sober or stay sober... solidarity my friends, the struggle is real.