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Hi Taylor, we don't know each other personally, but I'm proud of you for starting your book - I hope that's not too weird. It's so fucking hard to start, and you're doing it! I wish we weren't both in the grief club, AND I'm glad we connected. My husband was diagnosed with incurable cancer in 8/2018 and died 3 years later 8/2021. I started my memoir in Jan 2024 and I'm about halfway done. My story focuses on my life after my husband died and some of the crazy shit I did because grief messes with your head. Your book will definitely help people and I look forward to reading it one day. XO Amy

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Oh Amy hello! Not weird at all! Thank you so much! Kind words like your help me keep going.

I am so glad we've connected!!

And that is fucking awesome you're halfway done!

I'm so sorry you know what it's like to live with all the 3 types of grief. I did some really shitty things because of it as well. It truly messes with you!

Please stay in touch! I can't wait to read your book and I'd love to support you as much as I can!

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I'm sorry for your loss. My hugs to you. I know this book will be so special and beautiful like your child. My love and support will always be for you, Taylor.

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Thank you so very much! Your words and encouragement mean a lot

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Go girl!! ๐Ÿ’— I have chills.

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Taylor, I feel your excitement bursting from the page! Not only will your story help other parents/people/anyone who has suffered profound loss but as I have found, there is healing in the unraveling, the digging in, and the feeling of this process.

I listen to my heart when it tells me to have care with it, my body when it needs to step away, and my soul when it bonds with my son through our shared story.

I look forward to reading more and sending you lots of love โค๏ธ

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Oh Janine, your comment means the world.

I too have learned that the only way I can heal is from within and to do that, it means feeling and unraveling all of this, like you said.

Iโ€™ve done so much better with listening to my heart. And while it is heavy due to the nature of the topic; itโ€™s lightened by knowing that someone will be helped with this.

Thank you so very much. Iโ€™m deeply sorry you too have experienced a loss like this.

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Thank you. As I am for you. Itโ€™s not a โ€˜clubโ€™ I would have chosen of course but Iโ€™ve learned so much from my son who chose me for this journey. Much love to you!โค๏ธ

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I feel like there was not enough "fucks" in this one. Maybe you get it better next time. :S

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๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ to be honest you are probably right. I'll try again next time

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You are so brave and the world needs your story! Write on, friend. ๐Ÿ–ค๐Ÿ’ซ๐Ÿค˜๐Ÿฝ

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Thank you dear! That means the world

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As a fellow GOF-er, Iโ€™m super proud of you for starting this deeply personal project. Keep it up - youโ€™re helping yourself and others! ๐Ÿ’—

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๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ thank you so much!! That means a lot

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Good luck with this project - I cannot comprehend the grief and despair you must live through losing your child. That you can turn it into something positive is an amazing thing. Keep going, keep being strong.

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Thank you so very much โค๏ธโค๏ธ

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Mine did. It is a lonely old club, isn't it? Sending love, from one grieving mother to another. xx

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I'm so very sorry. It's starting to be less lonely now that I've started to find so many of us here on Substack โค๏ธโค๏ธ I'm working on making a community for us:)

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What a great idea! ๐Ÿ’•

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Thank you so much ๐Ÿ’“

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This is tough work that you are doing, Taylor Cecelia Brook. I am proud of you. Grief, anticipatory and otherwise, isn't a welcome topic in this world - yet. Thank you for doing your part to make it as normal as possible. Also, sending love and light for the inevitable painful moments of this process.

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Oh my, thank you for your kind words. It means a lot that you are so encouraging!

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I just love you. Now...I'm on a hunt for a page I wrote a decade ago about how writing and memoir about a trauma is like giving birth, and scraping your womb out afterwards, and giving up your "kid" to a world that you can't trust to love the kid like you do. I'll find it and send it to you.

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I love you too!!! Oooooo yes please!!!!

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